Because vulnerability is not easy to take... specially to those who are admired for their strength and patience and mindfulness...
When torn apart beyond one extent, each one gets to that state of being where they are not able to sustain the phase of life anymore or sometimes not willing to show their weaker side to anyone especially those who matters…
When we are not in a good shape, we want to be loved but we are very afraid that someone who has seen us go through this heck of a mess might never want to stay in love with us and that’s the reason we try to distant ourselves from each and everyone…
We feel we are being unreasonable with the very wish of being accepted in the form that we have got ourselves into…
We feel we are literally unlovable in all the circumstances around…
We feel we are no more worthy of anyone’s care and empathy because of the choices we made under some unfortunate situations where choosing best was not an option but choosing the less worse was all you could do…
Going through too much to take and too little to choose from, we feel the one walking beside us will also be dragged in the pit of depression and thus we choose to jump into the darkness alone leaving everything everyone that matters behind…
If you are facing anything like this, please hear me out ,
You were not wrong, you were just wronged…
You were not blind, you were blindfolded…
You were not bad to choose bad… when there was no better choice to make…
Please don’t push yourself into the pit of depression..
If you have already done it, pull yourself together…
Your story didn’t end… you were never meant to choose darkness just because it was night for a while…
The sun is rising upon you… open the damn door, atleast peek out of window…
Each day brings new starts, fetch one for you this very moment…
What happened was unfortunate but not fatal cause see you are still breathing…
Take a deep breathe… don’t just sigh in exhale…
Your loved ones are still lingering behind even though you shouted real hard “leave me alone… I don’t need you…” cause deep down they knew you really and badly do…
Forgive yourself for the mistakes, own up to them but instead of stopping at the पश्चाताप (remorse) station, go to the next stop called “प्रायश्चित (atonement)”
You didn’t mess up when you made a mistake, you are on the verge of messing up when you are simply letting it stay the same way…
It’s not over if you are willing to learn from your mistakes and try it better way next time…
Life is not about one missed opportunity, dear; Life offers abundant of them,
And you keep missing them being all-vulnerable in “leave-me-alone-you-don’t-need-me-anymore” door-snap choosing to sit in the depression pit wrapped up in self knitted misery blanket…
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